How To Balance it All?

Yesterday I got my second songram. This is the one they make sure to check for all organs, body parts, etc. I did not find out the sex. There are so few surprises in this day and age, I want this one to be huge. Plus, I am not such a fan of gender specific things. What if your liitle football player wants to be a ballerina and vice versa? That is not something you can force on a child.

The whole event was amazing and as time approaches, I find myself more excited and happy about what is going to happen to my life. But, this whole event has also made me think about many things in my life. Now, my main career is working with children. I love it, but in all honesty I do not see myself working with kids and then coming home to a kid. That would be too much. My love is writing and comedy. I worry daily about how this new life will affect that. Already my energy and stamina have decreased. I worry how I can balance writing, performing, and filming shorts with having a child and being a mother.

I think writing and helping Generation Stiockholm and Josh Homer with filming will still happen. But, I am realisitic. I will probably be off the comedy scene for at least 6 months or more. And that scares me. Whenever I make some headway things in my personal life get nuts. I am really happy with the past few months of what I have been doing. I know that my comedy partner and our endevours would still happen. But, my solo success could have a huge hit.

Who knows what will happen? I sure don't. Right now, I am just trying to work hard, create interesting things, and basically enjoy my husband, my (soon-to-be) baby, all my friends, and where things take me.

If anyone out there has any advice, I will listen. I think comedy and entertainment is already hard on women, I can't imagine what it is like on mothers.

Thanks for listening. This might be the most solopsistic post I've ever written.